Successful

I was successful!!  I successfully passed all of my tests that I talked about recently.  Yay!  Yay me.  I feel really good about that.  My studying payed off.

Now if I can just find a way to hold on to these feelings.  I'm the kind of person to dismiss things after having done something well.  I let go of the feelings of elation too quickly.  It's good to let that energy, that goodness, surround me for awhile.  Positive energy is what you want to surround yourself with and to have it grow in your life.

Positive energy includes people, thoughts and emotions.  Have you ever paid attention to your thoughts?  I've done that often.  It's called minding your thoughts.  I listen in on what I'm saying to myself.  It's amazing what's going on.  I sing a lot in my mind.  There's always a song for whatever situation I'm thinking about.  I know it sounds crazy but there it is in my mind.

Anyways, feeling good and having good thoughts is all positive energy.  Positive energy expand and brings more of itself.  The more positive you feel, the more things flow for you.  The better the flow is, the more successful you'll feel about yourself and your life.

Tests

Several weeks ago I had to study for tests that I was taking for a potential job.  One of the tests involved me doing math which hasn't always been my favourite subject.  As a matter of fact, precalculus sucks in my books er....some of it anyways. 

I studied and stressed and stressed some more.  On the actual day, I had strong support with me in the name of my sister.  She's been my rock.  She hung out with me between tests and gave me lots of chocolate to help too.  I think it's suppose to help with providing something to the brain during times such as that.  I don't pretend to understand it but it helped.

Anyways, I thought that the worse part was the actual tests but turns out it's waiting for the results.  Did I pass?  I still have 3-4 more weeks to wait. 

I've come to the realization that it's not the results that matter, although I want to get the job but how I handle each and every day.  See, I'll be overjoyed with finally being financially able to take care of my business again.  Who I am through this trying time is what's important.  Who I am is one tough, strong and amazing woman no matter what obstacles I face.