Intervention

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How do you handle it when someone starts talking about death and dying? What about when the thought is about their death? Now, how about if it's your child?

My heart pounds when I think about it and tears come to my eyes. Yet I'm so mad too. I know teens think about these things as we all do sometimes. I remember feeling as if I wanted to jump off of a bridge when things felt bad at home for me too. I just never verbalized it to anyone.

To hear my son talk about suicide leaves me shaken. I don't know if he would actually do it or if it's just talk. I decided that I wasn't going to wait around to find out. I had to do something about it.

I arranged some intervention right away. I talked to his dad whom he lives with and together we can arrange time with a therapist.

I have two children. My son, though is the one that has been greatly affected by the separation of his dad and I. He feel things deeply and hides that hurt inside. Oh GOD, I wish I could take that pain away, so much. I would take that gladly so that he would not have to suffer.

Tell me what else can a parent do in a situation like this? He lives far away from me and I can't even hug him. The phone is my only consolation for now.

UPDATE
I'm happy to say that things are not as they seemed. My son has been feeling very down but I guess he wanted more attention than anything. Anyway, he's well and We'll be keeping an eye on him just in case. In my case, my ear to the phone for long conversations.

A Continuation

I want to continue on about the Haiti earthquake because it needs to stay at the forefront. I want to ensure that it stays in our minds. Mine too of course. This way I can continue my prayers and support because they(we) have a long road ahead.

It's been so easy to forget because I'm not seeing the tragedy on the news as much any more. We've pushed it to the back and other news has taken its place. I know that Haiti is not the only place that's suffering yet it was brought to the forefront for a reason.

Let's keep the good thoughts and donations coming for as long as we can. It's the right thing to do. Let's use our hearts and stay out of the mind for a little while longer.

Haiti's Children/Our Children

http://www.journeysoftheheart.net/HaitiPicsTwo.html


I watched the two telethons that were organized yesterday. One was put on by Canadians and the other American. In each, the outpouring of love directed at Haiti was tremendous. They talked about various people that were rescued after days of being buried under the rubble and children that survived the odds and were found alive.

They reminded us that in the days, months and years that it will take to rebuild, we must continue our efforts.
Haiti will need all of our continued help and support. Our love must not waver.

Each time I watch the news about Haiti, I see a small part of the number of children that have been left parent-less and homeless; tears come to my eyes. Those children are yours and mine. My heart swells with the pain that the children must endure to get through this ordeal. They, the children are pure and innocent. Yet they have chosen to help the world(us) heal itself. They are the future, our future.

Here are a few links re: Haiti's relief and how to help http://www.cbc.ca/haitirelief/

This story is about how much really reaches the needy http://www.cbc.ca/consumer/story/2010/01/18/charity-donations-spending.html

Help for Haiti

http://www.worldatlas.com/


Haiti is getting the help that it needs albeit slowly. Just this morning though, they were rocked with another quake. It doesn't seem to have done much more damage. It's being assessed right now.

It's good to see that nations from around the world are working together to benefit Haiti. The relief efforts are massive and time consuming.

That, working together is what this disaster is partially about. Our Haitians brothers and sisters have been living in despair for a long time. They needed help and we couldn't see their need. Now, through more suffering than we could ever know or understand, attention is finally upon them and their plight.

We are in no way removed from the suffering even though we are not physically in Haiti. Our spirit feels and knows and that's how we are a part of it all.

I wish for blessings untold for Haiti.

Haiti's Earthquake

Haiti has suffered an enormous tragedy. It will take years to return to some sort of normalcy. The pictures of broken bodies and massive rubble where there was once life is hard to watch. I'm just a casual viewer and I feel overwhelmed at the images. Imagine the feelings of those living through this experience and their families abroad.

I have prayed and will continue to pray for the loss and pain that is occurring at this time. It sounds simple but group prayer as I'm sure they're receiving is making a huge impact. Right now all eyes are focused on Haiti and love and help is coming to their aid.

I pray for the people who are still alive and under the rubble waiting to be found. Let's all pray together and send as much of our positive energy to help heal the island.

Thanks for reading my blog too.

Kids

Said's shaved eyebrow by Faisal Tuddy, not my son but this one's a cutie


My son, is one amusing kid. Recently, he told me that he tried to put cool mark on his eyebrows but messed up. This is like shaving a design into your hair. The dude ended up shaving off his brows in frustration. He was pissed with himself when they didn't come out the way that he wanted them to. so, he just shaved them off lol. What a kid!!

My son doesn't live with me and that's why I didn't see the cool "no" brows. When he told me about it I laughed my ass off it was so funny. He went around with no eyebrows for about two weeks. That how long it took for them to grow in again.

His friends and teachers kept asking him what he did with his eyebrows. He told them that he'd put them in a box for a little while. He has a good sense of humour even if he does get frustrated easily.

Aside from the normal frustrations and pain that comes with having kids, the love that we share is enormous. It's part of what I use to sustain me.

Kids

Motherhood by Javier Delgado Esteban

My kids are a blessing to me. My son came to me after a first painful experience of having to abort a fetus. I was told then that this heart beating inside of me was not a baby when I had the first ultrasound. I had watched expectant moms beam to receive their ultrasound and the first picture of that life beating within them.

When it was my turn, I excitedly waited and received the disheartening news.
I was crushed. The pain in my heart was unbelievable. The weight of that pronouncement almost brought me to my knees. Tears splashed down my face unchecked. I walked home slowly not knowing what I was thinking or doing for that day. So lost was I in my thoughts that I didn't even notice where I was going.

After much prayer and asking, I realized that this baby was not ready and neither was my body. My time would come again. I prayed for acceptance and faith that all was well. I thanked this spirit for choosing me even though it's time was short and let go with God's help knowing that we would meet again.

The first trimester or three months of pregnancy is such an amazing time for mother and baby. Pregnancy and childbirth itself is an incredible and wondrous experience. Imagine that we as women are given this gift of bringing forth life into the world.

That's why I feel so blessed to have had the experience. I love my kids dearly and throughout all that has happened in my life would never change their coming into my life.

Life/Love

The purpose of life is to express who you are.
On this planet our soul's purpose is to be who our soul wants us to be. I've figured out that part of that purpose is to love and love in every moment. That might sound easy to some people but yet so complicated to others.

Why is it that these concepts seem to be the ones that we have the most challenges with? I mean just look at it carefully. Love. I think there's a big majority of us that are afraid of love in some way. Why? Well there are many answers and individual ones based on our experience.

Love is hard to define. You just know when you are "in love" and what that feels like. Loving someone is very different from loving something. Loving someone makes us behave all goofy although that's not necessarily a bad thing.

I think that if we learn to love everyone and everything in some way it would make a big difference in our world and to those that we meet. Imagine our world with so much love in it. It's already there but now we would be more conscious of it and would be applying it constantly.

I'm not living in a dream world. So much of what each of us is searching for is tied to love. Love, that one simple word can turn our life inside out or upside down.

A New Year

It's a new year. A new year brings a fresh outlook to everything, if we choose. The new year came in during the full moon too.

It's said that each day is an opportunity to start afresh. We can let go of yesterday and focus on today. It called living in the now.

I don't know about you but I get stuck in my head and replay the past and hope for what I want in the future. I know I'm not alone. That's why there is so much emphasis on living in the now.

Living in the moment is a practiced way of living. It sounds good but do we actually follow it? To answer my own question, sometimes and for brief moments.

For me, it's an aspired way to live. It's very much like meditation. It's something that when practiced over time become easier I'm told.

This new year, I hope to pay attention to the many now moments. I know I miss a lot by being stuck to the past and what's in the future. All I really have is now anyway.